So, here I am once again flying high above all creation nestled between a window and my adorable five year old. There are worst places to be. I am over Canada right now and, from my current perspective, it is filled with nothing but water and pine trees. The plane will land in an hour or two and I will be able to cross off another state off my list of places visited… Alaska. However, this trip feels like it will be much more than just a simple “check off experience”. It feels like a much needed walk into the wilderness as I forage into a last frontier.
The last year or so has been amazing and difficult and hopeful and tiring and an adventure.
Many changes have happened in my life. I have a 1.6# baby growing in my wife’s womb that I can’t wait to meet. I have seen the church that I pastor at grow exponentially and many lives be touched. I have launched a powerful book called “Porn Again” that is being sold worldwide. I have traveled to Africa and back.
But… in the midst of the highs, there have been “not so highs” too. Between my friend and FT employee from our church taking off for another job, the weight of a church renovation nearly wiping me out and countless attacks, both emotional and physical, on the leadership of our church…. It has been one heck of a year!
But, that’s life… isn’t it! There’s ups and there are downs. There are amazing things that happen and some horrible stuff too. We wrap it all up and call it the ball of life. However, you have to know when to take a step back. You have to know when to say when. So, for me, this is my moment to say…
I know I need to recharge. I know I need to refocus. There are some major changes that are going to be happening in my life. From bringing another little baby into our lives to adding new staff members at the church to countless interviews and speaking engagements… this is going to be a busy time. And, I hold on to the belief that…
“God will never give me more than I can handle.”
I am reminded of the words of Mother Teresa who said,
“I know God won’t give me anything I can’t handle. I just wish He didn’t trust me so much.”
God is calling me to some great action and in order to focus, He is allowing me a moment to breathe.
The very fact that I’m on a plane is a miracle. Friends who love Jesus made a way for us to come. It is almost like they knew that this was going to be a season where we needed to breathe and focus and turn inward for a moment.
We have to do that every now and then. It’s not bad. It’s not ungodly. It’s not selfish. When you live a life that is focused on serving others, the ones that miss out the most are normally those who live under the same roof as you. It’s important that they at least get as much as you are giving everyone else.
So, that’s my goal. I want to unplug. I want to listen and talk and laugh and forget and dream and believe. I want God to whisper and scream. I want my kids to know that they have my full attention. I want my wife to have an audience with me… and just me.
So, that’s it for now. I love you guys and can’t thank you enough for your presence in my life. Keep praying for us and I’ll keep sharing life.
So, if you’ve been to Alaska, what do I need to see? Where do I need to go? And, where’s the best coffee in Anchorage?